April 29, 2011 § 3 Comments
I picked up my race number today.
I can’t believe my very first marathon is only a day away! I almost teared up when I was picking up the race packet (yeah I’m pretty sure I’m going to be a finshline cryer).
I just can’t explain how this experience has changed me for the better. I’ve learned so much about myself – physically and mentally. Running has helped me through unemployment and given me something to be proud of during a point in my life when I’ve struggled with constantly feeling defeated.
It’s a powerful feeling to take decisive action on achieving something that once seemed like a “someday” goal. One day about a year ago I decided that May 1st 2011 was going to be my “someday” and I’m just so excited that day is almost here!
April 28, 2011 § Leave a comment
Lately I’ve been daydreaming about what it would be like to be a travel writer. Since leaving Florida I’ve read countless books, blogs and how-to’s on “finding your passion” and making that your career. Almost all of these guides insist that you first identify that one thing that gets your heart beating fast. In the past I’ve always tried to apply that exercise to my current situation.
When I get really passionate, really excited about my potential to dedicate myself to a career, I often think of travel and journalism. I can’t really think of a more fulfilling career. I know that I’d want to approach my writing with a focus on humanitarian issues, and even maybe develop my photography skills into becoming a photojournalist.
But first, I suppose I need to daydream about finishing my thesis…
April 25, 2011 § 3 Comments
Looking through my blogroll this morning, it looks like everyone had a great Easter filled with some fantastic food.
I started off my Easter morning with the last longish run before the marathon. I ran 8 miles around Diamond Head (my favorite running route) and got to use my new Garmin 305 for the first time! I know it doesn’t make much sense that I’m just now getting a Garmin watch – a week before Marathon day – but Don is getting into running as well & we thought it’d be a good tool for the both of us to share. It’s really interesting, and almost distracting to see your pace displayed right there in front of you, but I’m really glad I’ll have it for the Marathon so I can keep track of my pace & strive for my goal time of 4 hours.
After running I baked my two all time favorite – oh so indulgent – desserts, Peanut Butter Pie & Apricot Cake (both recipes from my Mom). As you can see, I did not take before photos, but I think the half eaten pics just serve as a testament to their goodness 😉
We spent Easter with some friends from Don’s office. The host, Kayla made a delicious pot roast with carrots, homemade mashed potatoes, green beans and biscuits from scratch. So good, it reminded me of home.
And to top it off my Mimi & Papa sent us the most beautiful flower filled Easter basket,
It was a great Easter weekend!
April 22, 2011 § Leave a comment
I started a new blog called Idealistic Intentions today.
I’ve been thinking of doing this for a while now in hopes of developing my career goals and sharing my insights on international topics of concern.
I’m still going to maintain this blog of course, but if your interested in global happenings I hoping to start some meaningful conversations on current issues and events on the new blog.
Happy Earth Day!
April 21, 2011 § 5 Comments
I’ve had Ceramics class for the past 2 mornings at the base craft center so this morning I went to class in my running gear & ran around base for a change.
The water surrounding Hickam Air Force Base is SO beautiful. I just wanted to jump right in!
Every day I am reminded of how blessed I am to live in such an amazing place.
Now I’m going to try my best to be productive for the rest of the day. Yesterday while perusing Barnes & Noble I found this magazine The Solutions Journal, and so far I’m really impressed with the content. I’m hoping it inspires some academic motivation in me today.
April 20, 2011 § 4 Comments
Yesterday Don came home from work, and routinely plopped the mail down on the coffee table.
“Anything for me?” I asked.
He then tossed me the swimsuit edition of the Victoria’s Secret catalog.
I cringed. He smirked.
No, the catalog did not magically mail itself to my apartment. I’ve bought from Victoria’s Secret multiple times, and even (I regretfully admit) have turned to their catalogs for diet motivation.
But this time, receiving the VS catalog in the mail pissed me off. Probably because the other day I was browsing through Huffington Post and found one, two, three, four posts on VS catalog airbrushing snafus. Shocking? No, not really. We all know that glossy magazines and catalogs airbrush the heck out of their models, especially when they’re trying to sell us something, but this time it just hit a nerve.
It is no secret to those who truly know me that I have body image issues – really what woman doesn’t? – but I have certainly let these body image issues take over my life in a negative way on more than one occasion. A few months ago I wrote a long post on my dealings with disordered eating and negative body image. I published it & then felt weird about sharing such a personal subject and made then made the post private.
Without divulging the personal details of my body image issues, I’ll just say that I most certainly let magazines and pop-culture dictate my self worth starting out from a very young age which led to a roller-coaster adolescence of severe weight loss and severe weight gain.
Before I decided to take running seriously, I always viewed exercise purely as a means to attaining an aesthetic goal. It was never about feeling healthy, or gaining strength, or even relieving stress. It was always about feeling like I needed to look a certain way in order to gain acceptance, respect and confidence.
And really, as recent as a year ago, my exercise goals were still motivated by a “magic number” on the scale.
That all started to change when I ran my first Half-Marathon in November. I felt so accomplished – for the first time, I’d achieved something athletically that had NOTHING to do with my appearance. If you’ve read my bio, you’d see that my younger endeavors included dance & cheerleading and you can conclude that there was an overarching pressure to look a certain way in both of these hobbies.
So getting back to the Vicoria’s Secret catalog…
I’m a mere 10 days out from running 26.2 miles. The entire time I have trained for this marathon I have never once been motivated by the expectation that I may lose weight. In fact, I’m pretty sure I’ve gained some (muscle that is) and maybe weighed myself once a month at most.
A year ago this time I was obsessively counting calories, longingly referring to the 2010 Victoria’s Secret catalog, dreaming of a day when I’d have an airbrushed body that vaguely resembles one of the “angels”.
Today I am looking forward to buying a 26.2 magnet to stick on the back of my Jeep in hopes that I can share a positive message to any impressionable ladies out there.
You are capable of more than a number on the scale, than the size of your jeans, than the reflection in the mirror. You are capable of overcoming the constant pressure to live up to something that was created by Photoshop. You are capable of enjoying life, being active and never taking a moment for granted. Most importantly, you are capable of anything you set your mind to doing, as long as you believe you can do it.
And for that, I thank you running. Thank you running for the hours and hours of time to think. Time towards something to be proud of.
April 19, 2011 § 2 Comments
This morning I went on one of my favorite runs. Running around Diamond Head is challenging because of the elevation, but it is so beautiful.
8.2 miles isn’t so bad when you’ve got a view like that. It was HOT as all get out though. And I inevitably end up having to awkwardly share an elevator with 4 of my apartment neighbors on my way up to the 7th floor. I felt pretty bad for them because I am quite positive that I did not smell very good.
I did manage to list most of my “sellable” items on Ebay today – you can find my store under candacegrace on Ebay – and I donated a bunch of things to the Airman’s Attic as well.
The whole time I was running this morning I was conjuring up scenarios for Marathon Day (just 11 days to go) and I ended up daydreaming about what I’m going to wear. Yeah I know – all that hard work & training and I’m concerned about my outfit – I’m a girl, what can I say. In hopes of selling some of my Ebay items I figured I’ll be able to pay for a new Lululemon running get up. Yes, their clothes are expensive but when I break it down to a “cost per wear” I can justify the purchase. Lululemon fits so well, and their items are built to last. You might pay a pretty penny but if your working out 5 days a week, you’ll absolutely get your money’s worth.
I think it looks pretty festive, kind of beachy – a good outfit for my first marathon, plus I know it will be super comfortable.
While I was running today I started to think about how much time & energy I’ve dedicated to training for this marathon. And then I started to think about some of my blog friends who have accomplished marathons & more: as a new mother, or as as a full time Grad student who also has a job, and I can’t imagine how much more dedication it must take to train for a marathon when you’ve got to put on another hat for the rest of the day.
It’s really inspiring, that’s for sure.
I’m not sure if I’ll continue to race after this marathon. Maybe I will and I’ll train for shorter distances. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little burnt out on running, but its those few who I previously mentioned that keep me motivated.