May 31, 2011 § 2 Comments
Tomorrow will mark one month since I ran the Oahu North Shore Marathon.
In one day this month I ran 26.2 miles…the rest of the month I ran a total of 28.4 miles…bringing May’s total mileage to 54.6 miles.
I wasn’t planning on tallying up my miles for this month but I was in such a funk today that I needed something to feel good about.
I mean, I was in a major “don’t wanna get out of bed, slept for half the day, had an abundance of extremely strange dreams, didn’t really get dressed” kind of day.
Basically I got up at 7am like I usually do, ate breakfast, went back to bed until 9am (because it was raining), surfed blogs for about an hour, watched the Today Show, watched half the Nate Berkus Show, starred at my thesis for about 30 min while simultaneously cutting my split ends, went back to bed until 1:30, got up & did a 30 min workout…and then still just wanted to go back to bed.
And quite frankly that’s just not me. I hate being unproductive and I really hate feeling lazy. But for some reason I just couldn’t brush it off. And let me add, as nice as it is to live in Hawaii with endless free time, that does not change my Type-A “must be productive” personality type, meaning – even in Hawaii being unemployed is troublesome.
So around 3pm I decided to force myself to run some errands. Although I did not change out of my stinky workout clothes, I did manage to go to the post office and the grocery store. While at Safeway I spotted a copy of Women’s Running Magazine and felt a little spark of encouragement. I bought the mag & came home feeling slightly more inspired than I’d felt all day.
While I was putting away the groceries I glanced at my workout calendar that hangs in the kitchen & was encouraged by what was written in the square for May 1st.
Oh yeah, that’s right, I ran a freaking MARATHON this month. For some reason I needed to remind myself of this. Apparently all of the “rest days” and lack of high mileage runs this month have been toying with my emotions, making me feel lazy. But after adding up the total miles I’ve run this month including the marathon, I realized that I did a heck of a lot this month and I probably just have a serious case of the post marathon blues.
In reality the past 6 months have been filled with nothing but personal athletic milestones. Each week of training was another week of uncharted territory. I suppose the fact that I haven’t really challenged myself for the past 30 days has weighed on my mood more than I expected.
But – at the end of a crappy day I’m acknowledging how important it is for me to feel challenged. Which then leads me to understanding how crucial goal setting is for my ultimate happiness. I’m not saying I’m planning to run another marathon anytime soon, but I am realizing that I need to create a plan for the down time. I know that being idle sends me into a panic, and that’s something I need to work through.
I’m not really sure what that means for my present situation. I do know that I’ll be defending my thesis in June (which actually is something big), and I do know that I want to find a good job more than anything, but I have to trust the timing and be thankful for my accomplishments as they happen.
And as nature would have it, I looked out on my balcony at one point today and on the grayest of days, witnessed this beautiful rainbow. Even though rainbows are a commonality here in Hawaii, I’d like to think that spotting one outside my window could be a sign of good things to come.
May 30, 2011 § 2 Comments
There are endless reasons why I appreciate living in Hawaii, but one of the most resounding pleasures is enjoying nature. It’s so simple to spontaneously decide to take an outdoor adventure – and this weekend that’s precisely what we decided to do.
Seeing a waterfall has been one of my must do items for living in Hawaii since we arrived here 6 months ago. I’ve always been fascinated with waterfalls. For a girl who grew up in flat, mountain-less Florida, waterfalls have always seemed so mysterious and magical. The long holiday weekend seemed like the perfect time for an adventure, so we set out on the Maunawili Trail in search of the Maunawili waterfall.
The hike to the waterfall consisted of a 2 mile trail – full of rainforest, slippery rocks, and little streams of flowing water.
When we first arrived at the waterfall I was completely surprised at the amount of people who were there…and the numerous people who were climbing up the adjoining cliff and diving into the freezing cold mountain water.
After about 5 minutes of being passive onlookers, Don & I both decided we needed to experience this for ourselves. Luckily we had on our bathing suits under our clothes so there was no excuse not to dive right in. Don went first of course.
He bravely dove right in.
Next was my turn. I nervously swam over to the cliff, climbed the slippery rocks & tried not to acknowledge the group of about 30 strangers that were staring at me.
And it was so exhilarating! This experience served as a great example of doing something a little out of your comfort zone while gaining confidence & a wonderful memory.
May 27, 2011 § 3 Comments
Spending so much time on academic endeavors leads to many fashion daydreams, or basically me just wasting time pretend shopping on the internet. Browsing through fashion blogs and online store-fronts adds a little relief to an otherwise thesis centered day. Plus it’s a little motivating too. I like to think that upon graduating I might actually get a job that pays me well enough to afford some of my fashion fantasies.
I’ve recently become obsessed with Club Monaco. Their clothes have a simple sophisticated, yet international vibe about them. Ideally that’s how I’d like to define my sense of style.
In case you were wandering about my post-marathon running life, its been pretty low key. I still try to workout 5-6 days a week, but I’ve cut back on my running a lot. I’ve been sticking to 3-6 mile distances for my runs, & have ended up at around 15 miles a week this month. I wanted to give my body some time to adjust to not running every day, but it seems like the more I’ve cut back, the worse my knees feel. For instance, I did 5 miles this morning at about a 9:30 pace and for the rest of the day my right knee has been acting up pretty bad. Every time I attempt to go down stairs it stings in pain & is even a little feverish to the touch. I still enjoy running but I think my joints need a little rest so I’m not making daily runs a part of my workout routine for a while.
For now I’m looking forward to spending some time catching up with Don since we’ve got a 4 day weekend! Hopefully it will include some fun, blog worthy adventures 🙂
May 19, 2011 § 4 Comments
I’ve been largely absent from the blogosphere lately – which I’m sure you expected from that last post – and with that, I’m proud to say that in the past few weeks I’ve made some significant progress on the little black cloud that’s been looming over my head for what feels like forever…
…the thesis. 104 pages (and counting). A small book.
And as you can see by my academic calendar, I plan on graduating this summer. It’s been a long time coming, but I feel like I’m finally ready to let go of my academic security blanket.
It’s going to take a lot more work, but I’ve become increasingly aware of all that I am missing out on by prolonging graduate school.
I want to really take advantage of my time in Hawaii, and the only way to truly be open to new experiences is to finish this goal and move on to the next challenge.
May 7, 2011 § 4 Comments
Don took this photo of a storefront in Haleiwa town last weekend while I was running the marathon. From the moment I saw this photo I couldn’t stop going back to it, studying it, really thinking about what that message meant to me.
Outside this box lives a world that is real. Stop pretending it doesn’t exist or soon nothing will.
My favorite book of all time is Farenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. Farenheit 451 was published in 1953, decades before the internet, smartphones, and flat screen high-def TV, yet Bradbury developed a prophetic account of future reliance on technology through the main character’s wife Mildred. Mildred is an aloof character whose main occupation is her “interactive television” with which she spends most of her day “interacting” with.
After looking at this photo, over and over, I realized I could easily compare my daily life to Mildred’s. I do usually make a point of spending at least an hour a day outside, but other than that I am completely and totally engrossed in my computer. And on top of that I live in Hawaii! One of the most picturesque, photogenic places I’ve ever lived – and I’ve spent a whole lot of the 6 months I’ve lived here staring at a computer screen.
Blogging and social networking has given me countless positive experiences. Through this blog I’ve met new people, been inspired and awed by others accomplishments, and learned to express myself in an open and honest way.
But I’ve also come to realize that beautiful, tangible, experiences and adventures are waiting in the wings while I spend countless hours in front of my handy netbook.
I’ve always sought to be genuine in everything I do. I want the my life to be constantly inspired which means that I have to be willing to admit to myself when certain hobbies, occupations etc. no longer fit with my personal goals. Which is why I’ve decided to unplug a bit more. I don’t want to completely abandon blogging, but for now I’m deciding to rein it in. I may post some adventures here and there, but I’m not going to continue to post on the everyday aspects of my life. I’m cutting back on facebook & twitter too. Since I live so far away from my family & friends social networking really does serve a valuable purpose, but I have to be honest with myself in knowing that these sites are also a huge distraction and a catalyst for procrastination and anxiety.
This blog has been a great form of self expression for me & I’m so thankful for the meaningful interactions with new readers, new friends, and the opportunity to share my life with my friends and family back home. For now though, I’m setting my sights on a few personal goals and I just want anyone who reads this blog to know that I appreciate the motivation and support that you’ve contributed to these 8, very transitional, months of my life.
May 5, 2011 § 4 Comments
My Mom, my cheerleader.
Look at these goodies I received in the mail today from the best Mama ever. I bet you can guess which one is my favorite. I am so lucky to have such a supportive, encouraging family who have always cheered me on no matter what crazy endeavors I’ve attempted.
Talking about my supportive family reminds me of the day I decided to move away for college (only 3 hours from my hometown mind you) and how I felt so torn between leaving my family and going off to pursue something I felt passionate about. It almost seems like a joke now because I live a literal ocean away from my family and instead of a 3 hour road trip, it takes a 12 hr plane ride to get back home. My family has grown roots in Bradenton, Florida for generations. On my Mom’s side I was really the first one to truly “leave the nest” and even leaving for Orlando seemed like a huge deal. But as hard as it was for me to leave I will never doubt that my family wants me to live my best life, and their constant reminder of that has given me the confidence to pursue things like getting my Masters degree & running a marathon.
In other news I’ve come across a few blog posts that I found really interesting & if you’re a runner, I think you might too:
- Frayed Laces talks about the technical details of improving fitness levels.
- Carrots & Cakes gives an in depth review of dealing with running injuries.
- Oh She Glows posted a low-er calorie recipe for the almond butter lovers.
- Blue Collar Catwalk listed an updated list of Sweaty Wednesday 2011 goals.
Anyone come across any new bookmark worthy blogs lately?
May 4, 2011 § 1 Comment
As predicted, two days after the marathon & I was itching out of my skin for a new goal. I all but pushed the registration button for an upcoming May 29th 1/2 marathon, and then second guessed myself, leaving a few more days to think about it. The thing I loved about marathon training was that it gave me a tangible goal to work towards. As I reflect on the experience, I’m not so sure that I’m train for another full marathon this year. I have some looming academic and professional goals that I’ve been neglecting and I think it’s time to reorient my focus a bit.
With that said, I am most certainly going to keep running. Presently, I’d like to focus on speed work, improving my diet and maybe getting a pair of Vibram 5 fingers. After 2 post-marathon rest days I completed a 5k run on base today with the intention of working on my speed & pace.
I finished in 26:40 but there was a lot of wind which made it feel pretty challenging. My speed goal for this month is to complete a 5k in 25:00. My “pie in the sky” some day goal for speed is to finish a 5k in 21:00, but for now that’s a lofty goal which I don’t anticipate meeting for months to come.
I’d also really like to start taking some strength training classes. I’ve heard so many good things about Body Pump classes but they aren’t offered at the base gym so I may have to look elsewhere to find one. I’ve also got 2 Beachbody programs, P90x and Brazil Butt Lift that I haven’t done in months so maybe I’ll work those into my new routine.
I’ve also got a killer new playlist full of new songs I downloaded for the marathon. Some of my favorite new artists: The Airborne Toxic Event, Arcade Fire, The Boxer Rebellion, Vib Gyor, Jessie J, and The Asteroids Galaxy Tour.
ps: Yes I discovered The Asteroids Galaxy Tour from that awesome Heineken commercial. I so want to go to that party.